Not in a depressing sort of way, but kind of. Lemme splain.
The sun isn’t really coming up until after 7:00 AM sometime, I haven’t looked it up yet, but I know it’s still dark after my alarm goes off the first two times. The sun is also going down sometime before 7:00 PM, again, not sure exactly when. I guess I could look that up to emphasize my point. One sec.
Sunrise 7:45 AM
Sunset 5:59 PM
So there you have it. The nights are seriously getting long. It’s bizarro land up here in the Northwest. I’m not going to complain because I actually like the dank dark moody day, it’s just weird is all I’m sayin.
Today is a slight exception as my regular bus chose not to come by at all and it was raining a touch (a lot). I had on my giant jacket and I had an umbrella and some gloves stuffed into the pockets because I’m cold weather illiterate, so that worked out well for me. I normally have no idea which jacket to wear on which day according to the forecast. Not to mention my complete lack of style. These days my daily wardrobe consists of a shortsleeve shirt somewhere on my top end, a long sleeve shirt preferably in the same vicinity as the short sleeve, jeans, socks, and shoes that look like they won’t soak up every drop of rain. The shirts rarely match and the shoes are pretty limited at the moment. I then top it off with either a sweatshirt hoodie or my giant jacket. Oh, also lots of hats because I have no idea how to “do” my hair when expecting rain. I basically look exactly the same everyday. I’m a real prize nowadays. (Occasional self deprecation is funny.)
Anywho. I have to hit a goldmine at the Goodwill one of these days. I don’t know if it’s at all in style to wear big rainboots with huge polka dots on them, but that’s what I’m looking for. And perhaps a rain proof jacket with a hood so I can seal myself in and not have a damp jacket on all day. I have to figure it out myself before people start submitting me to go on What Not to Wear. I swear if they ever made me go on that show I would be so mean to those a-holes. They’re SO mean. Why does anyone agree to be on the show? A closet full of clothes isn’t worth the ridicule people. Maintain your dignity.
So that’s most of the not really depressing, but kind of stuff. The other depressing part is that I’ve been really homesick the last week or two. I miss my friends. I miss seeing my parents once or twice a month. I miss being around for the womb-time of my incoming nephew. I miss Tacosx3 with my BFFofAustin. None of this is surprising. I knew it would happen sooner or later and I’m sure everyone else did too. I think maybe it’s because I’m not going to be home for Thanksgiving like I had planned for so long. Whatever the cause, I know I’ll be okay. At the end of the sad moments, I remember why I’m here. I remember in the grand scheme of life, my time here is very temporary and it will be worth it. It better be fucking worth it. I will make it worth it.
Oh snap it’s a woot off. I’m out.